when i invest in my lisptic and mascara
they makes me feel good, without even wearing them
when i invest in saloon and massage theraphy
it makes me feel i am worth the treat
when i let myself pampered with spa
i love me, me love i
when i take care of my little nails
it makes me feel like a queen
when i read my fairy tales book
i entered into a new painless world
when i look into a painting
i am shallow into the image itself
but when i am thinking of someone
it hurts me so much
little happiness is expensive
huge happiness is expensive
little happiness is riskfree
huge happiness is risky
little happiness is short term effect
huge happiness is long term effect to infinity
little happiness is sprinkle itself
huge happiness is spreading like virus
since i am young, i always waiting for the huge happiness
and still waiting.. and waiting..
i am 1/4 of my life
it occured at short period and dies off
i am waiting for another spring
i am still waiting
~ Tomorrow will be a better day ~
Shelly@12:51 AM
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i carry my wrecked heart around
looking for someone who would have mercy
and maybe they would spare me some
to fill me
all i have has been squeeze out dry
everyone is busy finding the little dew
left by the moon last night
would you spare me some
my steps has been slow down after thousand miles
you have empty seats on your car
fill with dust
would you spare me that space
was i lack on what i have
or i want more than i should
~ Tomorrow will be a better day ~
Shelly@12:01 AM
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To be honest,
I am far away in spiritual life that I used to have
and I feel myself
becoming something I dont recognize
I took alot of things for granted
and follow what others do
even when it is wrong
just so that they wont laugh at you
just to be in their circle
I didnt realise it
until today
I seemed to break too many rules
cheating in my games
and I thought it was fun
Until I realise
everything seems so wrong
SO WRONG
in my words
in my actions
and even in my thought
I am glad at least I feel sinful
for doing what is wrong
maybe its time for me to slow down
think back
being fun.. doesn't mean to be what others did
Its time
to bring back myself
to be who I am
I am sorry to myself
to ruin who I am
"Karena itu, perhatikanlah dengan saksama, bagaimana kamu hidup, janganlah seperti orang bebal, tetapi seperti orang arif" - Efesus 5:15
~ Tomorrow will be a better day ~
Shelly@7:16 AM
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I feel so uptight with myself
so unsatisfied
It seemed that I have done something wrong
but i just couldnt figure what it was
I have been waiting for long
but there is still no answer
and I still wait for time to cure me
but does it work?
when i close my eyes
there is still the same shaddow
how i wish i could erase it
so it dont slice me anymore
I had always said it would be okay
Things would be fine
But when i turn my head
i know, i wish i could be stronger
my night turn so bright
that i couldnt turn it off
i need to rest my head
let me rest my heart
Thousand of panorama
Millions of treassure
I could turn them down
let me rest