To be honest,

I am far away in spiritual life that I used to have

and I feel myself

becoming something I dont recognize

I took alot of things for granted

and follow what others do

even when it is wrong

just so that they wont laugh at you

just to be in their circle

I didnt realise it

until today

I seemed to break too many rules

cheating in my games

and I thought it was fun

Until I realise

everything seems so wrong

SO WRONG

in my words

in my actions

and even in my thought

I am glad at least I feel sinful

for doing what is wrong

maybe its time for me to slow down

think back

being fun.. doesn't mean to be what others did

Its time

to bring back myself

to be who I am

I am sorry to myself

to ruin who I am

"Karena itu, perhatikanlah dengan saksama, bagaimana kamu hidup, janganlah seperti orang bebal, tetapi seperti orang arif" - Efesus 5:15