Today I am so retarded. Search about him on the net. I am crazy. I wondered if he ever miss me like I miss him. I wondered if he ever search for me like I am searching for him. Afterall, although I didnt contact him, but in my heart I am still hoping to be able to contact with him. Its not hard though. I got his email, his phone number, etc.
But that wasnt my purpose. I just want to see if he still ever think of me. That love is gone just like tat? So easy?? But why I am still searching for it.

Well.. I am part of his life and vice versa. If that memory still linger in my mind, I believe he feel the same. Just to say.. I still miss and love him very much. Though I know he already become the different person. I hope You will safe and happy always. Though this is stupid this is pain and this is idiotic things to do, I cant lie that I think of him in everyday even after few years I didnt see him.

He like the pillow I used to lose. I want and still hope that the pillow I could get back. I love and feel so comfortable with it last time. But now if I get back, even I still want it, but when I get it back, it will be very different. It has changed.

I just hope I am still in his heart. And never forget me forever.