I am very bored at home today
It's been days that I stayed at home
Either playing computer or do house work
I like lost touch with the world

WHen I bored I try to find a friend
Searching from phonebook the name I could call
As always... No one
Hm.. I just feel dont comfortable to meet anyone

SO i decided to jump into the pool
The wheather has been very cool this few days
So nobody was swimming
The pool is mine

I touch the water with my toe
It tickle me, cool indeed
But I am there so I should just swim
I thought it wont last long since I have no strength

After few laps, I become more and more energize
I swim faster and more laps
The feeling is like not wanted to stop
I just want to keep doing it

After 1 hour I stopped as the pool get so crowded with kids
I miss this feeling of being alive again
I will start swimming just like last time
when I try to forget all the sadness

My tears wont be seen in the water
I am sweating but the water calm me down
Such a sensation
give me the best therapy

I am in the stage of self destruction
It hurts inside out
Physically and emotionally drain
Finding the reason for me to live

I erase the day
like a gold fish in the aquarium
Waking up the in the morning
for not knowing the reason to live